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This month has seriously been one of the most interesting months I have ever had. I am going to get idealistic for a little, while trying not to spew my logic barbarically. While roller-coasters are usually something I refuse, this is a realization I have come to acknowledge, accept, and attempt to prepare myself for. No not the literal roller-coaster ride, but life. It is predetermined and shows absolutely no seniority to anyone. Christians, Jews, Buddhists, Atheist, African Americans, Koreans…..etc, it doesn’t matter. The second life is breathed into you, your roller-coaster ride begins and there is nothing you can do but be cognizant of the events at hand and do your best to be triumphant.
The following all took place this past month. In chronological order. (I think)
1. I shot a video (Below) for a member of my favorite band. Blink-182. I will some it up. Mark loved the video, so he asked me to do Blink 182 stuff. It turned into me writing a full proposal for full-length documentary over their next tour and making of the new album. I to go see Blink play their first show back together on Paramount Studio lot. Everything seemed to be fitting itself into place. Long story short they ended up hiring one of their buddies who had done a lot of stuff for them in the past. I was extremely bummed. Was so close to such a big goal and I fumbled the ball. Who knows, maybe sometime int he future it will come around again.
2. My little Neice is born, and I am all the way out in California. She wasn’t doing well after birth, but now everything is fine and she is home.
154 votesvote as favorite3. Anberlin contacted me about shooting a documentary on their current US tour with Taking Back Sunday. We negotiated for 2 weeks, and last minute fell through because the label didn’t want to fund it.
4. Leaving Superhero HQ and moving to LA. I am still going to be freelancing for Superhero, but feel it is in my best interest to be completely submerged into the film industry.
5. Last weekend I was at my friends house for a party. We were talking film when he mentioned his buddy downstairs was the Chief Designer for RED camera. Which anyone that has any knowledge of film, knows Red and how they are taking the film industry by storm. I was geeking out with him about everything Red for a few hours. When I left I said, “I would love to get involved with Red somehow.” Then 2 days later I wake up to an email offering me a full position at Red, as a “tech.” I thought about it very thoroughly, as I do most things, and decided it wasn’t in my best interest. I would have to put my freelancing to the side. I would take a halt from the creative side, and join the tech side. That is just something I couldn’t commit to, because my heart wouldn’t be in it.
154 votesvote as favorite6. Relient K is going to be sending me a proposal soon contracting me to do video work for them here and there over the next year.
7. Had to cancel my trip home to Oklahoma and Cornerstone so I could get ahead in my work. Thus canceling a job on a feature film. They were shooting in Tulsa, Ok while I was to be home, and I got asked to work on it. Movie is with Kate Hudson and Jessica Alba!
8. Iceland was once pretty certain, but now is looking like 50% as of an email I got yesterday.
9. I got an email today from Anberlin saying they will be contacting me soon about shooting a documentary over their fall tour.
10. Planning a trip to Indonesia and Vanuatu with “The Real Joey Lawrence” to live with 2 different tribes for a month. I would be documenting the trip into a “Pilot” that a big network is very interested in. The project may be pushed back into dates I couldn’t attend.
173 votesvote as favorite11. Next month I am going to New York to hang and film 2 rap music videos with Joey. It is going to be ridiculous.
I have never been so tossed in my “career” as I have been this past month. I am in the worst Catch 22 scenario I’ve ever encountered. I am so stoked on one hand and equally disappointed on the other. It is overwhelming me. I just have to laugh at the situation or I wont survive this industry. I am absolutely astonished and thankful for the opportunity and consideration on any of these jobs, however the competitive side of me doesn’t accept 2nd place. I’m noway content with that. It only pushes me to work harder. I asked myself, why do we beat ourselves up when things don’t go our way? Are we really that self-absorbed? In light of spontaneity, our lives can be tossed up/down, left/right, even throw us for a loop….We have no control. Not being in control is our vice and theoretically what bugs us the most. Can you imagine if we were in complete control? I will do my best in the future to not get so torn on what I don’t have power over. My life isn’t this job, and my life isn’t that job. Opportunity will come and I won’t always win. Life will never let us off the roller-coaster or let us lay out the course. We can only possess the tools to fix the ride when it breaks and falls off the track.
Analogy overload. Sorry for the rant. A ton been on my mind this month. Now time to hit up Six Flags! ; )
Beloved said it best, “We Were Born For Battle.”
Hope everyone is well,
Cale Glendening
ps – Top Photo is by Brittany Everett
